Monday, March 30, 2015

What Makes Me Happy Now

Taking Chloe to Sunday school before service on Sunday, I had a realization of just how different I am compared to two years ago.  What makes me happy is far different from what made me happy before Chloe.  Chloe going into Sunday school like a big girl and not making a fuss made me so proud.  And then when I came to get her after service, they said she listened so well and gave me a picture of Jesus she colored.  That melted my heart and filled me with so much joy.  Moments like that make me realize what life is really about.  Living my  life through  my child’s eyes is really what makes me happy over everything. 

While I was pregnant, I was so worried about how I was going to adjust to putting another person before myself at all times and how I would do.  Once I had Chloe, all that worry went away because it was just automatic and there was no question in my head about her needs over mine.  People always say it is different when it is your own child and they are so right. That is actually one of the biggest parts that makes me happy, the selflessness.  The fact that I can be so in love with someone that I will do anything for their well being and enjoy it.  I no longer think about what I want to do on a Saturday or what I want to wear for Easter.  The main and automatic thought is Chloe.  That to me is the most beautiful thing to experience in this life and empowers me as a woman that I get to mother my child.

The things that seem so little and that people do every day become milestones and you feel like you have never seen anyone do them before.  Things like them giving you a high five or waiving make you want to bust out and cry!  I think about how I carried my daughter for nine months and did not even know what she looked like and now she is going to the potty on her own.  It is all just so amazing to me and it makes me realize that it really is a miracle.
 And then on the flip side, I do not think I have ever been happy and relieved about doing things on my own like grocery shopping alone every once in a while.  Eric is off all week and watching Chloe and waking up this morning, I was so tickled that I got that extra 30 minutes since I did not have to wake her up and take her to my mom’s before work.  Little things like that are like gold!  (Even though I feel like something is missing!)

When I look back on what I used to care about and what used to make me happy, I  think of how blessed I really am to have someone bigger to care about.  With all the hardships and guilt I feel about things I think I could be doing better, when I see Chloe smile, hug me, or pass a milestone, I feel the biggest sense of accomplishment.  And through all the chaos of having a two year old, I am happy for that chaos!

Even though my daughter seems to grow rapidly right before my eyes, I cannot remember my life without her!

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Monday, March 23, 2015

Family Portraits & Weekend Shots

We decided to take our own family portraits this weekend...  

I  know, impressive.  

Other than taking funny pictures, we did a lot this weekend!  Eric was getting over being sick (which I realize he passed along to Chloe and I today) so he was happy to get out of the house and we spent a big majority of the weekend outside.  

My sweets!

Eric's nephew Lincoln's birthday party was this weekend at good ol' Chuck E Cheese.  Chloe was terrified!   She kept saying, " I wanna go bye bye" and kept pointing to the door.  She was not having it at first and hugged on to me as tight as possible.  She eventually let me go of her death grip and played a little bit but she still was not going to get anywhere close to Chuck E.

 The birthday boy!

And the best part of the weekend....
Chloe LOVES dresses and lately, shoes!  I don't dare try to take this little girl's shoes off when we get home.  I recently got some silver dress shoes with this little heel on it for her Easter outfit and she cannot get enough of them.  It is the cutest thing to hear her little shoes click clack in the kitchen!  Her outfit and shoes of choice on Sunday?  A flower crown, tutu dress, rain boots, a bracelet, and her trusty puppy.

And what do you do when you refuse to take off your dress off when you eat and get food all over it?  You put your back up on!

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Snake Saturday and Zoo Sunday!

Spring has finally sprung and I could not be more happy!  I was so anxious for this weekend that past because it was going to be 60 to 70 degrees all weekend.  Even though Spring doesn't officially start until this Frid, I am so over Winter and I feel like it just dragged on!  I had big plans for us this weekend! 

The Snake Saturday Parade and Carnival was on Saturday which is basically a kids friendly St Patrick’s Parade since the one on the actual holiday is more for drunken grown-ups!  No judgment to those drunken adults because let’s be honest, I have had my fair share of drunken moments but now that I am a mom and holiday junkie, I look forward to my child getting to celebrate.  I made a little St Patty’s themed breakfast of green eggs, fruit, and of course Lucky Charms.  After we got ready, we picked up my sister and her two girls, grabbed some donuts, and headed to the parade.  We met my cousin and her kids also.  Chloe wasn't too impressed with the parade but after that, we went and rode some rides and played around at the carnival and she loved that part!!!   After all that action, it only made sense to take a nap in the car outside of the house. We just couldn't make it in to the house!  After our nap, we picked up my two nieces and had a little sleepover.

On Sunday, we went to the Zoo for the first time this year.   Chloe loved seeing all the “Ammals” aka the animals.  What next?  Another nap, once again, it only made sense!  After that, Eric grilled some hot dogs and cheeseburgers and I enjoyed some wine and yummy food.  Every Sunday around dinner time, I get this “Oh, shit, the weekend it basically over” feeling and how I wish I could rewind the weekend! 

So, that was our weekend!  It was all about fun and I am not even upset that I did not get one house chore done!  No regrets other than not taking Monday off to recover!  Happy St Patty's Day!

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

A Happy Weekend :)

There were so many things to be thankful for this weekend.  Not only did we have warm weather and we got to get some sun, my Aunt Emogene got out of the hospital.  I wanted to share some pictures from our weekend.

 On Saturday, we headed right outside after breakfast and getting ready for the day.  We went to the park and then later on, we went to a bounce house place.  And then Sunday, my Aunt got out of the hospital so we went and visited and ate.  Some of my other family was over so it was exciting to see them and their kids.

 The kiddos

My aunt and Mother

I am so glad warmer weather is coming and this better not be a tease because I am def not ready to go back to winter!  I am so excited for the next holidays on the list especially Easter so that is prob what my weekends will involve, getting ready for Easter!  I have always loved the holidays but I have let life get in the way of celebrated and being as spirited as I want so I am going to make a better effort to do so for Easter.  This post got a little off topic but I look forward to Spring/Summer posts from fellow bloggers!  Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

A Day in the Work Week

Even though we live for the weekends, we unfortunately have a whole week to work to endure before we get there!  I wanted to document a day in our work week because instead of my usual weekend posts.  Even though I wish the weekend was 7 days a week and 24 hours a day, it isn't so I still try to embrace it and not wish my life away!  It is so hard to be away from Chloe and Eric so much and I always think about them and check in on Chloe on every break and lunch.  I do use it as a break though because it is hard being a mom!  I take my hat off to all the stay at home mothers out there!

5:30 am

I try to wake up at 5 am but let’s be honest, the snooze button usually wins that battle.  I start to get ready and do my hair first and then my makeup.  I do my makeup in Chloe’s toy room as you can see below!  The closet doors are mirrored so that is my little station and it comes in handy on the weekends because Chloe can play while I get ready!

5:50 am

After I get ready, I wake up Chloe and I try to give her 10 minutes to wake up but that doesn't always happen because it depends what kind of battle I had with the snooze button earlier.  She is so not a morning person and she hates being woken up out of her sleep even though she always wakes me up by 730 am on the weekend as happy as can be!  I get her dressed, brush her hair, and then brush her teeth. I get my coffee ready and get my lunch in a bag.  Eric usually comes and brings my stuff to me car and helps tend to Chloe while I gather everything including my mind.  At this point, Chloe is either reaching up saying, “I wanna hold you”  or asking for a do do (donut)!  I try to always give her some milk to do to get her milk in for the day.  

6:10 am

We shoot for 6:10 am for our departure time but 6:20 am at the latest.  I am fortunate enough to have my mother be able to watch Chloe when we go to work so that is where we head next.

7 am
This is when I get to work every day.  I am def not where I want to be as far as career wise but I still try to get through the day being positive.  I work with some really awesome people who I would say are more friends than co-workers so that helps the day go by.  In the winter, it is pretty slow so I end up writing in my planner, making my meal plan for next week, touching up my makeup, etc. throughout the day.  On lunch, I have been going on walks with one of my co-workers and she is really good company so that is a highlight. 

4 pm

Quitting time and time to pick up my baby.  I work 30 minutes away so I turn on Joel Osteen on YouTube and listen to one of his sermons on the way home.  This is one of my favorite parts of the day and really helps that 30 minute drive!

430 pm

This is the time I look forward to the most, seeing my little precious baby!  She is usually caught up in playing with her cousins she is usually  more bothered than excited to see me!  That is okay though, I still get my lovings in! 

5 pm

We get home around this time and our routine starts.  First things first, comfy clothes!  Chloe plays a little bit and watches cartoon while I start dinner.   Eric gets home a little later than us on most days so he is usually strolling in at this time unless he gets called in overnight.  She usually has a snack and drink also.  She loves to snack so I try not to give in to more than one snack before dinner.  This night I cooked homemade mini corn dogs and fries and I had a salad.  I clean up the kitchen and usually make me a cup of coffee.

6 pm

Around this time, we play and watch cartoons.  Chloe loves to horse play and it works out because I have recently been trying to work out but I can’t really get work outs in because she wants to sit on me or ask me to hold her.  She was sitting on my legs and I was doing sit-ups and I was counting with her as I was doing them and this little girl counted to 10 with!  I was a proud momma for sure!

7 pm

This is when we do bath time.  At this time, I bathe with Chloe because it is  easier and it hits two birds with one stone.  I turn on some Pandora and I get us all cleaned up.  After we get our PJs on and then I work on getting things ready for the next day.  I make sure Chloe’s clothes are laid out, the Keurig is ready go, lunch is made, etc.

8 pm

Next, Chloe says good night to her Daddy, we pray, and we lay in bed while she watched cartoons and I read my Bible.  Tonight I started Luke in the new Testament.  After about 30 minutes, Chloe goes to sleep.  I usually fall asleep with her but my goal is to be more productive and stay awake after she goes to sleep so I stayed up and blogged this!  We are about to put Chloe’s toddler bed in her room once we paint it so hopefully we can get her to start sleeping in her own room.  This scares me though because I have this weird fear that she will get kidnapped!